Beset
by ryall via gayle - Inverse Times Thursday, Jun 28 2018, 12:32am
international / poetry / post

it seems that whichever direction i took/take
regardless of context
i was/am besieged with all manner of problems;
it troubled me for years until one magic day
a solution was provided
or rather i discovered, as it was always available

the problems were neutralised by a simple process
of dis-location, that is, non-immersion in the problem
itself in favour of dealing with how they were formed or occurred,
one could say the ‘paths’ to and from were responsible,
not the outcome or destination/result

so in order not to create unwanted outcomes (problems)
a new approach (literally) was required, one that would not
create ‘monsters’

another requirement was essential, the actor or protagonist
must not exist or be re-cognised by self or another;
of course problems only exist for those affected or infected
by them, problems are the consequence of attached actions as distinct from
unattached actions, which find nowhere to attach themselves or roost

it was a challenging undertaking not to exist but be operational
so to speak, in the World, the mother of all problems --
‘to be or not to be,’ surely was the question,
yet this binary opposition was not a mutually exclusive affair,
i discovered i merely had to exist as something other than a focal
point or object/subject/entity

by pure chance some years back an astrologer asked to do my chart
and as i was born in a military hospital in Europe precise details of time of birth
were available on my birth certificate, there is a point to this so persevere

apparently i had the planet neptune precisely on my ‘Imum Coeli,’
(Latin for "bottom of the sky") which (IC) translates as home, foundation, location,
place, etc, and neptune dissolves everything it touches,
or rather permeates its non-specifity/abstracting influence onto the affected other,
how fortunate for my solution with problems, as they required a specific place
upon which to act; in other words i had to be located before any agent could affect me

put simply, i presented not only a moving target but a dissolving target,
one must be located before one can be affected by any external force,
notwithstanding this astrological placement has its negatives, for instance,
how could anyone project personal love onto an identity phantom?
‘i can’t reach you,’ (for purposes of control, no doubt)
was always the complaint from females yet there i was
in their respective faces, though the result is i have remained
single/unmarried all my life, and can’t get a bank or credit loan,
nor do i have a finance history, and all my ‘bona fide’ photo IDs are not me,
merely presentations of how i look at a particular time,
but that’s another story

though it’s all no great loss, some would say a huge benefit

so my solution, by circumstance of birth and personal effort
was gifted to me and earned
in previous lives; i act in the world, effect changes,
yet the world is unable to apprehend the actor
physically, psychologically, spiritually or by any means at its disposal, including
physical surveillance, as by pure chance i have a beard and wear spectacles, which prevent
biometric identification, how handy in today’s surveillance states.

so you see, being and non-being are not mutually exclusive binary oppositions,
as anyone with a little effort is able to be and not-exist simultaneously

have a nice day!

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